Main Thing First

in 20 minutes you can improve your closet. for $40 you can get a better pillow. no brainer. but where’s the line? when have you optimized enough?

i’ve spent more time selling, coding, and thinking from uncomfortable benches in noisy cafes than i will ever spend at my home office. endured apartments without heat, roommates without class, gyms without gear. all over the world, for years.

and no complaints, because i was focused on 1 thing. not one company. certainly not one project. but 1 thing: freedom. and it was only after i earned freedom that i began to wonder, what’s the best note-taking app?

except that graduation never happened. by the time i became free i was so ignorant of and disinterested in creature comfort optimizations that i became immune. i put on a lens that says “if product won’t make my life demonstrably better, it is for suckers.”

i don’t have a smart home. not a single sensor. no sleep mask or hand lotion. no morning ritual. i look at blue light until i fall asleep. no black out curtains. LEDs everywhere because that’s what the builder installed. have never tried AI or listened to Huberman, or any podcast for that matter. (asymmetry – i’ve been interviewed by dozens, but not listened)

for men, this is called being a bro. for everyone, it is called focusing on things that don’t change. for me, it is remembering i wasn’t made for this world. why strive to prolong my presence in it?

all of this despite my tendency to find efficiencies and build systems. i am not some unorganized, go with the flow type gal. i seek full control over my environment. its temperature, degree of background noise, people, proximity to coffee, all the way down to the thickness of my socks.

but through years of focusing on the main thing first, i learned (by accident) how to disable my weaknesses. drop me anywhere, i will make things. earn your freedom, then go shopping for light bulbs.